Lately, I’ve been having dreams that either mirror my past experiences or represent my deepest desires or demons. This is unusual, because normally I have dreams of which I can discern no significance and meaning, or I have none at all. These dreams are very important to me, and I cherish them greatly because in the humdrum of my everyday existence they are an escape, whether good or bad, whether sad or joyful, whether they make me cry or smile or a combination of both, they are an escape.
We are in class
The teacher is lecturing
I refuse to listen
With a beautiful girl
She is quiet, insular, unassuming
She has a story
Everyone has a story
More to her than meets the eye
More to everyone than meets the eye
I can sense her
Apprehension, tension, stress,
I share these feelings
But they can not rule me anymore
Must free her from their grasp
So we can be joyous
Because I am not joyous alone
And neither is she
But together we will be consummate
Consummate as human beings
Suddenly she whispers something
An accusatory, negative tone
It unnerves me, it startles me, it frightens me
Because now there is no turning back
Why do you ask about me?
Why do you want to know about me?
Why are you so inquisitive?
Why do you want to be better friends?
Misconceptions, preconceptions, confusion, awe, disbelief
Was I wrong?
No I wasn’t wrong
I was too right
Staring into the unwavering gaze of opportunity
By the same person I used to be
Now I am angry
There is no classroom anymore
No teacher, no students
The lecture stops
I don’t give a damn
This is life here, this is experience
Not the humdrum of a classroom
I cry out, I yell, I shout
What else is there?
What else do you want us to talk about?
What is there to talk about except ourselves and each other
our ideas, our lives, our dreams, our aspirations
When will we stop subjecting ourselves to this impoverishment
This disgusting environment
In which we blindly submit ourselves to authority
And lose our inner strength
Our ability to love
Our collective capacity to share and learn and grow from each other
Let go and respond
Do not have